Not feeling it on New Year’s Eve
I’m sat here in my underwear trying to get ready to go out with friends on New Year’s Eve and I just don’t feel up to it. A week ago I felt like my luck had changed. I had met someone nice who turned out to not like me enough back. I feel fat and unattractive and I keep staring at my face thinking “Who is going to love you”. I can’t get the motivation to get dressed up and go out and celebrate bringing the new year in as what if it just brings more disappointment?
I know probably need to just give myself a shake and go out and have fun with my friends but in all honesty, right now I would rather stay home and hide. Put on some pajamas and snuggle under the duvet in front of a movie.
And as for being fat, well. Maybe I should do something about it. Nothing I can do about that right now so I’m going to go put on some makeup, finish struggling to straighten my hair and get dressed. I’m sure I’ll be okay after a couple of jelly shots.
Tomorrow can be the day for sofa-surfing and movies as I’ll be nursing a hangover.
I hope you have a good one.