Not withstanding my last post which I wrote on the train home today but couldn’t post because there is something wrong with the WordPress iphone app, I’m struggling. I don’t know what it is. I feel like my lustre for life is gone. Every day seems like a struggle. Getting up is a struggle. Walking to the station is a struggle. Everything is a struggle. I’m trapped in a vicious cycle of not enjoying anything. Not looking forward to anything.
My mum said to try to enjoy the small things. I do try. I am trying. But its hard to get enthusiastic about anything.
I know I just need to hang on. I’ve been here before and come out of it. I just need to hold tight and wait to come out the other side. I just hope it’s soon.