I can’t seem to shake the sadness I’m feeling right now.
Maybe it’s the divorce, maybe it’s that I’ve quit smoking and that kind of feels like the end of an era – the end of the thing that would get me through tough or stressful times. Maybe it’s that I’m lonely. All around me other people have someone. I can’t help wanting that. Someone to love, someone to love me.
I had a nice weekend with the kids. We did swimming on Saturday, shopping and dropping a late present round to my niece on Sunday, a quick visit to my parents on Monday and a lovely lunch round a good friends house. It was great.
I’m enjoying my job. It’s still going well. I’ve been there 4 weeks now.
But I can’t shake this sad feeling. Is it depression? I don’t know. It feels like I’ve lost something. It feels like a cloud is above my head. It feels like a kind of grief.
I really hope I can come out of it soon.