Ups, downs and glad to have the kids back….
Well, one of them so far. Just got back from McDonald’s with Lala. A little treat her her as Josh was at a play date and I took him last week when she was at a play date. It’s really perked up my mood. Having that little bit of one on one time. I didn’t know how much I was going to get as I had two agency interviews but I managed to get to both of them early and get seen and I was back to collect her by 4pm so we just had time to do McDonald’s and come home and now she’s chilling on the sofa.
I’ve been feeling a bit down since last night. I think it was partly due to the fact I was starting to miss the kids. I’d not had them for 2 weeks as we’d done 2 week stints the past few weeks and partly some other stuff which brought back all the hurt and pain of our split back up last night. I don’t want to go into what it was but I just ended up feeling very down about everything. About the house that used to be my house. About how we used to be a family unit. Without meaning to sound uncaring towards Ben (I have a lot of respect and love for him) I don’t miss being “with” him but I do miss us being a family of four, instead of a split family of 3 on my side and 3/4 on his side.
But I have pulled myself back up again as I will continue to do as time goes on. I know I have survived worse and will continue to have highs and lows. But life is mostly good and I’m happier now.
I’d better go as Josh will be back any minute and I want to get a few bits done before he does as I’ve been terribly lazy the last two weeks where the housework is concerned! Oh well. My house my rules!