Last night I saw a video on Facebook where a lady took off all her clothes down to her underwear, blindfolded herself and then stood in the middle of a busy street with a sign that said something about body issues and that all bodies were valuable and if you agree you should take one of the pens she was holding in her hands and draw a heart anywhere on her body. The video is so moving as she didn’t get any abuse or ridicule – people just took pens and wrote things like “you are awesome” and other lovely things and lots of hearts on her.
This made me think of self acceptance – not just bodily but other aspects of ourselves. I feel like I am on a bit of a journey of self acceptance (I hate that phrase “I’m on a journey” – so cliche and like something out of X Factor, but it is true) since my marriage ended last December. I spent a lot of time blaming myself, thinking that there must be something wrong with me. I spent a lot of time worrying and fearing the future. I still spend a lot of time worrying that I will be on my own forever, but I am slowly coming to the conclusion that that might not be so bad. After all, I’m pretty awesome! And I wouldn’t BE on my own as I have my friends. So here is my list of awesomeness. I think we should all stop and do this sometimes. We are much better than we give ourselves credit for.
Abi’s Awesome List:
- I got through a very painful breakup and have managed to stay friendly with my ex even though the circumstances could have meant I hated him and his new partner with a passion. But I don’t. And that feels good!
- Which makes me a pretty strong person
- I moved into my flat and made it nice – made it “me”
- I have learned to cook
- I am master of my own household – I was always accused of never helping with the housework when I lived with Ben but being on my own obviously I don’t have a choice. Yes, sometimes the washing up is left for the night until I get back from work the next day but that’s my choice. When stuff really needs doing I do it!
- I am super-organised
- I haven’t gone overdrawn or in debt since I moved out (actually earlier – since July last year) and have become very good at managing my shopping and weekly spending budget
- I am learning to play guitar – something that I have wanted to do for years since I gave it up when Joshua was born – and I’m pretty damn good at it considering I’ve only been learning since June.
- I’m pretty good at this blogging mallarcky. I’ve been doing it for nearly 3 years (not such a fad then) and I earn regular money out of it. Awesome!!!
- I have lost 20lbs in weight since April this year! Dropped 2 dress sizes and fitted into a whole host of stuff that had been in the loft labelled TOO SMALL.
- I have the support of some wonderful friends. So they must think I’m pretty good/nice/worth being a friend to – and they tell me this when I’m struggling.
- I’m pretty sexy. I’ve been told time and time again when out that I do not look 38 – by women as well as men so it can’t just be them trying to get in my pants. I also still have the ability to bag a 24 year old guy (for the night – I wouldn’t have wanted anything longer term) so I can’t be that old and saggy!
Life is for living and enjoying. So that’s what I’m going to do.
Have you made an Awesome List! You should!!! Cos you are!