Flat feels empty. Sometimes I love living on my own. Right now I don’t. I’ve been on my own all day apart from when I popped into see the kids this evening. I did a bit of tidying up after my party last night. I wrote a review post I’ve been meaning to do for a couple of weeks. And I’ve chilled out and watched quite a lot of TV.
But I feel sad. I miss the kids not being here. I feel low and lonely.
Maybe its partly the alcohol from last night messing with my meds. Or maybe I’m just having a bad patch. I think I really need to stay off the booze again. Get stricter on myself.
I was really looking forward to having time to myself after a pretty full on week – Alara being ill and starting a new job and not getting much sleep. But even though getting plenty of sleep has been good, I’ve not felt myself. Felt very lonely. Very sad.