My contract is coming to an end
I had that meeting with HR today. I was still buzzing from a wonderful weekend (I have posts drafted about that so you will get to read about that later but I haven’t had time to finish them off yet). Anyway, it turns out that my contract is going to be ended on the 9th May. The lady I was covering for is coming back from maternity leave at the beginning of that week and I will do a week’s handover (4 days really as the Monday is a bank holiday). I held it together until the end of the meeting but right before the end I started losing the ability to hold it in and a few tears escaped. I guess I knew it was coming. I feel a bit shell-shocked. Part of me was hoping that they would tell me that they had found a job that they really wanted me to do. They had created a role for me. Hell, even that they wanted me to stay on for another few months to do this that or the other. But no. My contract is ending. I need to start looking for something else.
I know this is just business. I didn’t have any promises that there would be a job at the end of this. I guess I wasn’t expecting to like working there so much. I feel a little betrayed. I feel unwanted. I wanted to be told that I’d done a really good job and that they desperately wanted to keep me. Hell, who am I kidding?
Anyway, I’m having tonight to feel sorry for myself. But tomorrow I’ll be updating all my job site profiles and emailing agencies. I’m going to make this into a good thing. I’m going to find something better. Something right for me. I’m feeling worthless and discarded but I’m not worthless. And I need not to take this personally. It’s all going to work out in the end.