I’m struggling right now. Struggling with commuting. Struggling with not spending time with my kids (and the knowledge that others spend more time with them than I do). Struggling with the complicated childcare arrangements that we have in place and relying on family so as not to bankrupt us. Struggling with a job that doesn’t challenge me or even keep me busy. Struggling with the idea of training and bettering myself so that I can work my way to a better job. Worried I won’t be able to do it. Worried that people will *know* that I’m no good. Worried about hubby being away, that after 3 days I’ll just fall over and end up taking time off work just to catch up on a bit of laundry!!! Worried about being fat (actually truthfully that’s the least of my worries right now but it does bug me every morning when I’m trying to decide what to wear). Worried about people seeing me looking like shit (no energy to do makeup and hair this morning and put fairly casual clothes on and then ran into ex-boss and some colleagues from my last company at work). Worried I’m going to regret missing out on my kids littley-years when they’re older and that time is gone.
Just don’t know how long I can carry on!!!