I need to find a new direction… or an old one again…

After having the kids for 2 weeks and a day, a week of that being the Easter Holidays, I’ve just spent the evening on my own for the first time in a long time, watching TV and movies. The last two movies I have watched have been about hiking… In the hope that I will get inspired to start hiking again, like I did about a year ago (almost exactly a year ago to the day in fact).

I have just finished watching Wild again (the film from the book by Cheryl Strayed – Wild – a Journey from Lost to Found). And I have to say it has had the effect I wanted. I feel itchy to get out there and start hiking again.

I’ve been feeling stuck for quite a long time. I’ve put on weight and I’m not happy with that but I’ve had no energy or inclination to do any exercise. I’ve felt like almost everything is a struggle. I struggle to manage the kids, I struggle to walk the dog, I struggle….

I need to feel like there is more to me than just making meals (crap meals at that as I’m a pretty rubbish bloody cook). More to me than feeding the cat and the dog, than watching endless box sets, than lying in bed wondering if I’ll ever meet a decent man. More to me than a woman who failed at her marriage and ended up alone trying to raise 2 kids alone (every other week – mostly).

I need to get unstuck. I need inspiration. I need to put my boots on and walk.

Please comment so I know I'm not alone out here!

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