I’ve been feeling a little low lately. Nothing has changed. Life is still going well if you look from the outside. But I feel muggy. I’m tired all the time. I feel a little down. Probably not full blown depression mode which is at least a good thing, but I feel so unmotivated and lethargic.
I’ve not been getting out during the week with Biscuit for our daily walks as much and I’ve gone back to eating mostly rubbish and less healthy food. I know I’m larger than I could be and mostly I’m okay with that right now but today and yesterday I felt like I’m pushing maximum density.
I also feel rather isolated. I am happy to work from home and be on my own all day but I’ve let seeing friends slip by the wayside lately too. I haven’t been making as much effort to keep in touch with people and its starting to show in my state of mind too.
I don’t know is this is just a case of the winter blues. I have been feeling under the weather with a cold type thing too so maybe I just need to wait it out.
Christmas is coming soon too. I don’t know why but I can never really get excited about Christmas. Maybe its because my marriage fell apart a couple of weeks before Christmas. Whatever it is, I find the whole thing a bit stressful. Which is why I try to be organised and sort things out early and I’ve still managed to do that, even with my lack of motivation in other areas. I’ve sorted the kids presents and stocking fillers from Amazon and Poundland. I also got a tonne of wrapping paper (Poundland) and I got my sister’s present, which is good.
I also spoke last Friday at the local networking meeting I go to. They did a hot-seat type thing where you are asked questions about your business. I was really nervous at first but apparently I got into it after a while and people were engaged in my answers (so I was told). Which is also good.
So its not all bad. If I can get out of this fuggy low-motivation thing, that would be great.