It’s funny how a song can change how you see things.
I was on my way to work this evening and I had my phone on my favourite songs playlist. This list has hundreds of songs – happy ones, sad ones, country music, rock, Elvis, the Beatles, beck, Muse. The songs that came on just happened to put me in a good mood. It helped that the sun had come out.
Then at the end of my shift, I put the music back on again as I drove home and again, just the right songs came on and I had this feeling, like an epiphany.
I thought to myself. I’m alright. Things are good. I’m a good person. I’m a caring person. I love my kids. I have a gorgeous puppy. I am good enough.
I don’t know if it is a high that comes after a low but I felt like I could do anything.
I felt proud of myself. I run my own business. I changed my life to be the way I wanted it. I work hard. I care a lot about the people around me.
I felt excited about life. I felt like I wanted to go out and do things. See places.
I wish I could bottle this feeling and take it when I’m feeling low and miserable and guilty and unloved and abandoned and hurt and let down.
I do hope the sun comes out tomorrow.