Overwhelm & Self Doubt #writer

I’ve not had a very productive day. I’ve maybe spent 45 minutes on my course out of a planned 2 hours. I did finish an assignment and send it off, and started working on this week’s assignment – I have a good idea of what I’m doing for this one.

I met a friend for coffee this morning – to give her some jars I was getting rid of and then met my best friend for a coffee in town, but then I lost motivation to do anything and I ended up wasting the rest of the day.

I’ve been doing things on Facebook – trying to monitor the many blogger groups that I’m on, and find out if there are other sites I should be active on in order to grow my blog following – supposedly, the higher my following, the more I can charge for sponsored posts.

I also looked up how I can increase my DA (Domain Authority) – this is the value that is put on my website that PR companies use when they decide how much they are willing to pay you. I’ve been stuck at about 25 for as long as I can remember and wanted to see how I could increase it. It turns out that growing my following and maybe guest-posting on other blogs (thereby getting links to your blog out there) is the only way to do that. So I’ve been trying to organise the blogs that I follow through Feedly. However, a lot of the blogs I was following on there are no longer active so I’ve deleted them and need to find others to follow – but if I’m honest, I’m not sure this is the best use of my time.

I’ve also, this evening, while I’ve been watching TV, been googling the best websites for writers and have come across this list of 100 Best Websites for Writers which I have been taking a look at. I know I have a lot to learn. I know some of it will be covered in my course.

Tomorrow is going to be a better day, I have decided. My plan is to start with my assignment. Get that done, and then go back through my course and make notes of any useful websites or tips.

I’m stressing because I feel like I need to know everything now. I’m worried I won’t have the ideas that I need to contact editors of magazines and newspapers in order to sell stories. I’m worried I won’t have the contacts (although this is a silly worry as most contacts are on the publication’s website). I’m just worried I won’t be good enough. I know I can write – about life, about me, about my experiences, but will editors want to pay me for those things. Will I be able to make my work professional enough.

Other things I’m worrying and stressing about are: do I need business cards, do I need to change my blog so it is clear on the front page that I’m a writer looking for paid work or do I have a new website / social media presence – I’ve been advised that as I have such a large (at least on Twitter) following, I should keep everything through Mum in a Hurry, but I’m not sure how editors would look on that. Is my blog part of my portfolio or doesn’t it count as I’ve published it myself?

I know these doubts are perfectly normal when embarking on a new career that is so different from what I’ve been doing professionally for the last 20 odd years. I just feel like I don’t know which way to turn right now. So many questions, so many worries.

Please comment so I know I'm not alone out here!

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