Ever since I was a little girl, I have loved all things make-up and beauty. I still do. Just get lost in the cosmetics department of House of Fraser. I just went in there to buy a mascara and ended up buying a mascara, a cream and an eyeshadow. To be fair I needed all three but I should have gone cheap as chips, not top(ish) of the range.
Here is a picture of what I bought at the Benefit Counter:
I want to be the kind of girl who moisturizes her entire body (or failing that just her face) before bed and in the morning. Who puts makeup and nice clothes on before she leaves for work. This morning, after deciding that I needed a boost, to feel pretty, I put makeup on on the train – and red lipstick. I did/do feel nice.
But the honest truth is I’m too lazy to keep this up. I’m tired in the evening and just want to go to bed – not spend half an hour preening myself. I’m rushed in the morning and would rather spend an extra 15 minutes in bed than get up earlier and make myself look beautiful – and who exactly am I looking beautiful for. Most days I think what is the point because I don’t think my work colleagues care if my face is bare of makeup. And actually I do feel like I shouldn’t HAVE to wear makeup every day. Men don’t so why should I.
But the thing is, I’d like to make the effort. If nothing else, so I feel a little boost when I look in the mirror. I’m nice looking, I think, and I feel like if I made an effort every day it would boost my mood, and you never know, I might attract a little attention from a handsome stranger (one can only dream).
So I’ve made a decision. Tonight, after the kids are in bed, I’m going to tidy my bedside table – clear it of everything except products that I intend to use before bed. I will also put together a little makeup bag to keep in my rucksack as I’m not silly enough to believe that I can make myself get out of bed 15 minutes earlier.
We will see how long this resolution lasts.