Last night I went out. Initially on my own. I did feel like a bit of a sad act going into Wetherspoons and buying a glass of wine and then going and sitting on my own.
Thankfully one of my best friends came out to keep me company and we headed to a different pub which, it turned out had Karaoke on later. I absolutely love singing and karaoke so it was perfect for me.
I had such a fantastic time with my friend (and two friends of hers who also joined us). Bit racey for a Thursday night (going out drinking and staying up late) but managed to get myself up and out of bed this morning, although it was hard work.
It just occurred to me that I’m beginning to feel like me again. Happy. Chilled. Fun. Chatty. Sociable.
I met a guy who was a regular at another pub I used to go to when they had karaoke on. And he remembered me and commented that when he’d met me before I was clearly miserable and unhappy. He said I looked like a different person. Obviously I’ve lost weight (quite a lot really – 30lbs) since then, but he said (and my friend agreed) that the happiness just shows on my face.
I had such a good time. I am having flashbacks of singing Paradise by the Dashboard Light by Meatloaf with Emma.