Mid Year Resolutions

In two days it will be seven months since Ben and I separated. It’s been the toughest time of my life but I feel like I’m starting to move on and we, Ben and I, are settling into a calm, healthy parenting relationship, maybe even friendship. But I still find I have to give myself a stern talking to sometimes. Like last night when I went to bed and ended up dwelling on things after the afternoon took on a negative slant when some people I knew completely blanked me. I found myself questioning my worth as a human being, asking myself if I’m a really bad person and generally feeling pretty shit about myself. My opinion on this is that even if you don’t like someone, it takes 5 seconds of your time to say a civil “hello” and does it harm you in any way? No it doesn’t. But people are not me and I can’t control others actions. It also reminded me of a quote that I heard at BritMums: “No-one can make you feel inferior without your consent” – Eleanor Roosevelt. 

So these are my half year resolutions:

1. Try not to let others’ actions make me feel inferior or sad (easier said than done)
2. Put a lid on unhealthy friendships – with everything I’ve been through in the last 7 months, it has really shown me who my true friends are. Some people I thought would support me have been glaringly absent and that hurt a lot. But it’s time to move on. 
3. Focus on the future. Not on the past. This thing has happened. Maybe I brought it on myself in some ways but there is no going back and I truly believe I’ll be happier. I’m learning more about myself everyday and one day I’ll meet someone new. When I’m ready. 
4. Love every minute when I’m with my kids and make the most of having time to myself when I’m not. 

That’s all I can think of right now but I think it’s a start.