I’m struggling

im struggling with the waiting

I’m struggling with being pulled between being at home as much as I can to be with the kids but having to go sleep somewhere else

I’m struggling with not having a proper home

I’m struggling with not being able to properly move on yet

I’m struggling getting through each day and wishing each day would go so that the next day might bring some news

I’m struggling with constantly chasing estate agents and solicitors

I’m struggling to put on a brave face when right now I feel like crumbling

I’m struggling to look forward to things

5 Thoughts on “I’m struggling

  1. You are going through such a big change and it must be so hard!! Sending you massive hugs and lots of love!

  2. Anonymous on March 7, 2015 at 17:15 said:

    Hang in there, you are doing really well. All of a sudden it will all fall into place, sounds like u are so close !

  3. Hi Abi, I’ve just been catching up with all your posts as I’m currently going through the same thing although we’re not married and have only been together for just under 5 years but we have 2 very young children together. I know the pain you’re going through and the resentment you have against him. We are still currently living in the same house which the desision was made yesterday that he would sleep on the sofa. Neither of us want this to happen but it’s just not working so we’ll stay under the one roof until we sort things out. May I ask how old your children are? How have they taken to it? I feel so bad for my kids, they’ll grow up without a proper family. Anyways I hope you’re okay and if you need to talk feel free to get in touch 🙂 xx

    • Sorry was just testing if I could reply from my phone as it doesn’t always work.

      I’m so sorry you are in the same position. It’s crap isn’t it. I’m finding positives in looking forward to having my own place but it’s frustrating that it’s taking so long.

      My kids are 4 and 6. They seem to be taking it pretty well.

      Try not to think of it as them not having a proper family. Families take all sorts of shapes and if you and your husband can find happiness living separately your kids will be fine. As long as they have two parents who love them to death, they will be fine.

      I know it’s hard for you. As it is for me. But kids are resilient and they will be fine as long as you are both there to reassure and support them.

      My advise would be keep talking – all of you. You and your husband, you and the kids. Keep communications I open.

      Feel free to contact me on facebook, or email abishepherd@gmail.com


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