I don’t know where to start. Just feel so low.
I’m low so I’m a rubbish friend. I’m a rubbish friend which makes me feel shit about myself and the vicious cycle goes on.
I honestly don’t know why anyone would want to know me. I just let people down. I let my husband down by behaving in a way that makes him ashamed of me, I let my friends down – even the ones that are there for me through thick and thin by saying stupid things that I don’t mean when I’m in a nasty negative, jealous mood.
I don’t feel like I can talk to anyone about this feeling because I’ll just drag them down with me. I’ve already proved that I do!
Good news is that my meds will be ready soon and hopefully that will help. They’d better had as I don’t think I can get much lower than this!