Where to start. I don’t want to go into details but I recently (yesterday) had a problem with a friend that I love with all my heart because I had got jealous over her relationship with other mums from school and I felt left out because I am not invited to things. I know my reaction was over the top and I should never have expressed it to her in a message when feeling at a very low ebb. This resulted in her being very upset and this is not something that I wanted.
This has knocked me for six because I’ve suddenly realised that I’ve been doing it again – relying on a friend so wholly for support and being totally engrossed in my own problems, not being a friend back. Then taking out my insecurities on them.
I know I can’t blame my depression entirely for this behaviour but I’m sure it has a part to play. I just hope my prescription for my new meds comes through soon which hopefully will help while I’m waiting for therapy sessions. I don’t want to be like this.