Things have happened at home and at work. I’m don’t even know where to start but I still have a job and a family. For now.
I know what I know. I need to start thinking about my family and looking after my house. Not the house. My house. The one that I live in. Helping out and doing my share. I need to stop lying about things. About how I feel about things, about money, stop taking time off work and not telling my husband.
I also know how I feel. I feel broken. Hurt. I feel like I’ve been a waste of space. I feel like my dreams have been doing nothing for me. I feel like everyone would be better off without me.
I want to get past this. To feel better about myself. I want to get back to feeling like a normal human being, a normal wife and mother.
I’m going to try. But it’s hard.