I’m at risk of being a real moaner here but sod it, this is my blog-party and I’ll cry if I want to.
I feel so unmotivated. Unmotivated at work and unmotivated to do anything unwork-related. I think I should probably go out at lunchtime but I also feel unmotivated to do anything. And I know if I go into town I will be tempted to buy something I don’t need or can’t afford. I’m trying to be good money-wise.
I know I’m feeling sorry for myself and wallowing. But right now, I can’t seem to help it. I don’t WANT to go through the whole job hunt thing again! It just feels so unfair.
This afternoon did go better than the morning (when I wrote the above). After I got back from lunch I set myself a few timers and got on with things. Then I got a phone call from an agency asking about a job that might be of interest (project related) and it turned out they were not paying enough (like 10 years ago not enough)…. But then a bit later I got another call for a much more promising job. A project manager job in an IT company about 10 minutes away. Sounds like they want someone early on in their project managing career which is totally me.
So that did cheer me up quite a lot. I don’t feel quite so blue and negative as I did earlier on in the day.
Right now I’m waiting for Ben to finish up what he’s doing and the kids to go quiet (they’ve just been put to bed) and then we are going to go down the gym. I haven’t been to any of my classes in over a week as I hurt my knee a while ago and they are still playing up so I can’t do my usual stuff. But Ben is going to do some weights with me – show me his programme that he does that won’t involve anything to do with knees. I’m going to try to stay positive and just enjoy doing something different.
With regards job hunt, I really need to buy some new shirts/tops. And some new black trousers – I have some suits and things but I really need to try them on. The black trousers that I wore today are so baggy now. They are really comfortable but the way they hang its like they are jimjam bottoms, not smart work trousers! I feel a shopping spree coming on. OK, not a shopping spree as I’m trying to be good with my spending, but I will need to buy a few choice items. Maybe I will decide on one or two items a week and stick to a budget.