Man I’m relieved. I can actually talk about it now. I was keeping this a secret because I hadn’t told my husband but on Thursday I plucked up the courage to tell him and now I feel better and I can tell you guys. I think not being able to write about it (when right now its a huge part of my life) was part of the reason I had a bit of a bloggers block and why I haven’t written anything for a while.
So…. my confession.
I’ve been taking slimming pills. I know I know. Its cheating… Kind of. Except is it, because its still ME putting in the effort to exercise three times a week and to limit my calories to under 1300 per day (using My Fitness Pal). So really, I am doing all the work. The pills are just making it a little easier for me as it kills your appetite and makes you thirsty so half the time you are drinking so much water you are not hungry (I’ve heard it said that a lot of the time when people think they are hungry they are actually thirsty – don’t know if that’s true or not).
How I found out about them?
I will start from the beginning. I went to see a friend a few weeks ago and while I was there chatting to her, telling her about how I was just completely failing with my weight loss attempts as all attempts to exercise were foiled by my tendency to eat as a reaction to emotional stimulous – stressed, tired, bored, upset, sad, basically any emotional reaction leads to me wanting to eat. She told me that she had taken diet pills in the past and had lost weight on them before – in fact she’d just gone back on them. She’d mentioned it before and I guess I dismissed it as cheating. But this time I think I was feeling really down and at the end of my tether. I had joined Weight Watchers and managed to stick to it for about a week. I had been exercising 2 or 3 times a week (exercise classes) but I think because of the food I was eating i wasn’t really noticing much of a difference and its soul destroying when you are honestly trying, but not getting anywhere.
Where I got them from
So I bit the bullet and called the place that my friend recommended. A place called the National Slimming Clinic. My nearest one was Basingstoke. I made an appointment for the following week and booked a half day off. On the day of my appointment I was a little nervous, not really knowing what to expect…. But they were really nice. After filling in some forms, I went up for my appointment. The doctor was friendly with a nice manner. He asked me a few questions about what I was hoping to achieve. Then he measured my height, weighed me and took my blood pressure. He then explained a little bit about the pills: that they would reduce my appetite, he said they would make me thirsty, and I might feel a little bit speedy in the mornings and that I might have some trouble sleeping (although I’ve not really experienced that symptom – not until last night, but I think that is down to me having two glasses of wine and not drinking enough water – I felt very dehydrated all night and kept waking up to either go to the toilet or have a drink). He told me that I should eat normally – healthily – he said I should try to keep to around 1500 calories. And I should have no problems losing weight. I was given a lower dose (15mg) for the first week and after that I would be on 37.2mg per day – to be taken in the morning. He gave me my pills and I went downstairs to complete the paperwork and pay at the front desk. The lady on the front desk (the manager I believe as she said her receptionist was out poorly that day and so she was manning the front desk) was very friendly and chatty. She was very nice and reassuring. I paid and was on my way. I was due to take my first pill the next morning.
I started taking the pills on Tuesday 21st January. The first couple of days I felt quite buzzy and energetic. I was super-productive and felt pretty good. I didn’t feel much like eating at all and I was very thirsty, drinking a tonne of water. The second and third days, my appetite came back a little bit and I felt less skittish. On the Saturday I took the pill early as normal and drove to Wales for a hen party. Which was interesting as the dry mouth thing meant that I was drinking a lot of water which meant at least 2 toilet stops along the way! I didn’t take a pill the next day as I was late getting up and I didn’t want to need to keep stopping on the way home and I didn’t think it would hurt to actually want to eat something. As it turned out I didn’t eat that much as I didn’t feel like it. On monday 27th January I weighed myself and I had lost 5 lbs. I have to say I was pretty damn pleased with myself.
I’m now on day 12 and I’ve lost a total of 10lbs. I started at 14 stone 6 and am now at 13 stone 10. My goal is to get to 11 and a half stone – which is 161 pounds for any Americans out there. I have a total of 31 pounds left to lose (2 stones and 3lbs). I have done a spreadsheet and a chart – as you do. Here is my chart:
The dark green is my progress. The light green is my projected past based on my current achievements. The Yellow is my goal weight.
Part of the reason for doing the above chart is that I wanted to see roughly (assuming I carry on along the same track) when I could expect to arrive at my goal. Hopefully it should be around the 3rd March. Give or take a week.
I know a lot of people may frown on what I’m doing or think of it as cheating or think it is bad for me or tell me that I might get addicted to it. My answer is only that for once I actually feel like I am capable of doing this – of getting back to the size I want to be – to be comfortable in my clothes, confident in my body. I know this is not a long term solution. I do still need to address my emotional eating habits and when I’m at my goal weight I will need to continue to watch what I eat and carry on exercising. But it is already getting much easier. I’m working harder in my classes at Nuffield than I was when I started. I really feel like I am getting there.
In addition to this, the lovely people at Nuffield Health have offered me another month’s free trial until I can get to 13 stone – when my dad is going to pay for a year’s membership and the MD at the National Slimming Clinic (in exchange for me blogging about them – which to be fair I probably would have done anyway – have offered me a free month’s medication). So suffice to say I am loving blogging right now! Never underestimate the power of a blogger in this day and age!
Here is a before photo (before starting at Nuffield and before starting on the slimming pills – this was actually at beginning of December):
This is a picture I took of myself in the mirror the other morning. I certainly feel different.
Let me know what you think. Would you be willing to try slimming pills? Honestly, up until a few weeks ago I wouldn’t have been.