I made the mistake of doing my finances.
I’m already feeling a little edgy today (like I might burst into tears for no reason). I have so much work to do but my brain seems to be incapable of acting on any one thing. I just look at all my emails and feel overwhelmed.
I’m so scared of failing. I’m so scared of people realising that I’m a fraud (the years experience and skills on my cv will pale into nothing when they realise what I know – that I am useless and lazy and not worthy of a nice place to work and of the money I’m being paid.
I know that this is all because of reducing my medication. Logically I know that! I think I may need one of my panic pills because this feels like an emergency!