Struggling to stay focussed (and positive)
The office is very very quiet today. It should be a good thing. There is hardly anyone in the office and I don’t have much work to do – plenty of time to busy myself on other things – and I have tried somewhat. But I’m finding it very hard to stay focussed. Things I should be focussing on – my studies. I have an exam on Wednesday and I need to study. I currently have a PDF open in another window that I’m studying – a Prince2 summary type presentation which I’m going through to make sure I have all the main principals down. But I’m struggling to concentrate on it.
I have done a couple of useful things today. I fixed the PBloggers site forum page which had been coming up with an unknown link – which is very annoying when you’ve been sending tweets out telling people to check out the forums. The correct page is here by the way. I also fixed the favicon (tiny icon that appears at the top of your browser tab when on a particular website – if you have ebay open it will show the ebay sign next to the Ebay name – and it will also show on the bookmarks bar too if you have one) on this site. So now you should see the little mini-mum in a hurry icon at the top of your page.
I am feeling dishearted (again) regarding pbloggers. I just went on Britmums to have a look at something after receiving their email newsletter (should I be doing one of them? – as if I’d have time) and looked at their forums which are just BURSTING with topics and activity. Why don’t I just throw myself into somebody else’s forum and chat and get out there? What made me think I was so special that I could create my own bloggers forum/network? I’m having a whole load of self-doubt. I know, I should just stop bitching and get on with it. But I find it so hard to find the time to do everything I want to do – mixed with studying which I don’t really want to do but I have to so I can find a better (still boring but better) job somewhere that is closer to home and ISN’T HERE. I am just starting to feel REALLY low. Who the f*** did I think I was?