I’m back at work now.
I can’t believe I’ve not blogged in nearly 2 weeks. Its pathetic really. I wish I could just whip off a blog post from my iphone. I should be able to. Just to keep you all updated on a daily basis but I don’t seem to manage it. It probably doesn’t help that I waste time by playing silly iphone games when I’m not either studying, working or looking after the kids. I should spend my time more productively really, shouldn’t I, but I find these games relaxing. I like to be able to switch off some of the time. In fact, I’m going to try to write one post a day for the next week to get back into the habit of blogging.
I am currently sat at my desk eating my sandwich I made at home. Its an olive bun with cheese and cucumber. Its very yummy but I have a feeling that when it’s gone I’m still going to want more. That’s the problem with the weather getting colder – it seems to make me extra hungry! Talking of food, and weight etc, I have quit Weight Watchers. I tried doing My Fitness Pal for a while but I have decided to take a break from all tracking for a while. I have too many other things going on. I have, though, started going for a walk/run with a friend. We started on Monday, and are planning to do Monday, Wednesday and Friday each week. Religiously. I am feeling really good about it. For one thing, it is a parent from my son’s school who I really get on with. She is a little fitter than me (I think a lot, but she says not) but in some ways that’s a good thing because I can push myself to keep up with her. Yesterday when we went for our run, I really struggled during the running bits – partly because I’d had a large cup of tea just before we went out and some water. And I felt all sloshy!
This week has been a real drag. Part of me was looking forward to being back – the freedom of being able to sit at your desk with a coffee and not be disturbed by small people wanting things – but after a grueling 1 hour commute in on the first day (also the first day I’d done that commute since schools went back), that novelty soon wore off! Soon I was back at my desk wishing I was anywhere but there. Daydreaming about a different lifestyle – being a stay at home mum, or being a writer… All pipedreams really. Ho hum. Anyway, so before I came back to work I decided that I was going to ask my boss if I could work from home one day a week so that I could be the one to drop off and pick up my son from school. So yesterday, I had the meeting with my boss. She said she is going to think about it – that she is snowed for the next few weeks but she will get back to me in 2 weeks’ time, but she did say that she wasn’t keen on the idea. She didn’t want to set a precedence, favouring me because I have kids over the other team members (actually team member because currently there are only 2 of us). I personally don’t see why the others shouldn’t request to work from home sometimes too. I thought companies were keen to assist parents in juggling family life and work life. I wasn’t asking to change my hours. Just to do some of it from home. I said that it could be on any day that was preferred by her, that I could stay working later (until 6pm – I currently leave at 5pm to be home by 6pm). She also said that she was not 100% happy with my current record – forgetting my laptop and having to return home for it – and thus being late. I texted her to tell her forgetting that she was actually on holiday and I needn’t have bothered. I could have just carried on. I doubt my colleague would have said anything. Kicks herself! I’m sorry but everyone makes mistakes. Yes, I was out sick for a week or so when I had suspected glandular fever. The doctor signed me off for 2 weeks but I came back after one as I was advised I’d run out of paid sick leave. I feel like the black sheep of the team. Even though the team consists of 2. So I’m the black sheep half of the team. I am not sure I even care. I know I should try to do my best. And I do try to keep on top of it but my motivation is rock bottom. I feel like nothing I do is good enough. Every time I talk to my boss she’ll throw in a little bit of negativity just to keep me in my place.
I have my Prince 2 Foundation exam (again – I was disqualified the first time as I used a headset in the exam that I did online – this time I’m doing it in an exam centre to avoid any similar mishaps) on Wednesday next week. I have been studying – not as much as I should have been probably. I need to do plenty tonight. I will start studying as soon as the kids are in bed and get Ben to bring me my dinner and I’ll eat it there. My plan is:
- Study for exam: Today – next Tuesday night
- Take & hopefully pass exam – next Wednesday (I have afternoon off work)
- Book myself in for 2 day course to study for and sit next level exam – Prince 2 Practitioner
- Look for new job – I may start idly looking now. I’ve already updated my CV online on Reed so it will hopefully pop up on some agencies desks.
In other news, we have a new au-pair. She arrived last Friday from New Zealand. She is utterly amazing. I will call her B. She has been around to help with the kids, to talk to and play with them, since she arrived. She’s up early helping out and eating breakfast with us. She eats dinner with us and watches TV with us. She’s really becoming part of the family. This morning Ben was sleeping as he hadn’t got to bed until 4am due to work and I had to get ready for work so she got the kids dressed and ready and got Joshua off to school. It feels like a weight off our mind. I know she’s capable of handling them. Of telling Joshua off when he’s a bit naughty or rude to her, of getting Lala to sit on the potty even when she makes a bit of a fuss and doesn’t want to. And when I get home I get to hear all about their day while we all chill watching cBeebies and drinking tea. Its fab. I am not ever letting her leave. Ever! lol.
So what else has been going on? Oh, iOS7 came out yesterday! I know a lot of you will read that and say “you what?”. iOS is the iphone/ipad software by Apple. I’m a bit of a geek and so I love when a new bit of software comes out. I get all excited about it and it has been building up for a couple of weeks (more probably but I’ve only been paying attention to the hype for the last week or so). I downloaded it last night after a couple of failed attempts (the world and his dog was trying to do the same thing) and I love it. Its got such a clean new look and feel.
Anyway, enough from me for the moment. Will try to update tomorrow!