Mental Health Monday post – Monday 29th July #mhmonday #pbloggers
I am so sorry that it has been so long since my last Mental Health Monday post. If you are new to this linky, here is the page that explains what its all about. Feel free to join in if you want. It doesn’t have to be a recent post – can be an old one if you want. It doesn’t have to be a theme other than somehow to do with Mental Health and it can be linked up on any day of the week – I only post MY post on a Monday and then you have all week – until midnight Sunday night – to post your own post in the linky.
Today I’m going to be talking about work-related stress and depression. I’ve not really been happy working where I am since I started. The job was never as busy as I had hoped it would be. The other week I wrote about wanting to hand in my notice because I was feeling that down about it all. I have written about the commute to work and how stressful it can be sometimes. I wrote about how unfair it feels when the rules are different for some people in the office compared to other people (in my own case, contractors/admin staff vs full-time (permanent) employees and managers. I also had a brainwave and asked my boss if I could do the same hours but over 4 days and that was turned down which sent me into a bit of a depression.
My current situation is that my colleague has just handed in her notice and while I’m very happy for her that she has found something better, I’m disappointed for myself because I thought it would be ME that would be leaving first. We spend so much of our time at work (particularly if we work full time) and if we don’t feel satisfied or rewarded or valued, its amazing the effect it can have on every other aspect of our lives. When I go home at the end of each day, I am glad I’m home but there is a part of me that can’t enjoy it as I know that tomorrow morning I’ll be back on that hour-long commute. And at the end of every day, I’ve got to battle traffic for an hour before I can even think about enjoying a glass of wine (once the kids have been put to bed that is). Its just never ending and until I find something else and the whole cycle happens again (lets face it I’ll probably get bored of that too or the new job – if I ever get one – will not be as good as it was meant to be and it’ll all end up shit again). Can you tell I’m on a bit of a downer today?
This was written on Thursday last week and since then I am feeling a bit more positive about the whole situation. More on that later.