I’m feeling a little lost.
Hubby is worried about new house and the feasibility of it – bad internet, no mains gas or sewerage….
I think I am suffering from post christmas blues (as opposed to the pre-christmas stress that I also suffered from – as I do every year).
I just feel like the house is such a tip. I feel like I need to completely reorganise myself. I need a new start, a new me. I need to get fit, detox, eat healthily, teach the kids to tidy up after myself.
I’ve been looking on some organising blogs that I used to follow when I was doing my own organising blogs and I love some of the ideas that I see but I feel like I just lack the motivation to do anything with them. I feel so sluggish and slow. Its so depressing and frustrating because I really am at that point where if my life gets anymore stressful, messy or chaotic I may just explode.
The other day, can’t remember which day it was, Ben took both kids out and I decided that instead of sitting on the sofa watching TV enjoying the time to myself, I would whizz round, making the most of the lack of distracting small children, and tidy up the sitting room – the main area of concern in my house. When hubby came back, shortly followed by a friend of ours, they both mentioned how great it looked. Sadly about an hour later the kids had undone most of my hard work. They couldn’t exactly unsweep and unmop it (so at least it stayed clean-ish) – although I reckon they’d probably give it a go, but they certainly got everything out again and threw all their toys everywhere. I just wanted to sink my head into my hands and cry. I yearn to live a tidy organised existance but I’m just not the type of person who is able/willing to spend every single minute of every single day picking up, wiping, mopping, tidying….. I lose the will to live. Secretly, I want someone to do it all while I’m sleeping, but as that’s unlikely to happen….. Not sure what to do.